Wednesday, 23 January 2013


VNDKFHDIAIUSGFYDUSDNCISDSBC GUISE MY EXAMS ARE OVER! SOOOO MANY MIXED FEELINGS LOOL! Happiness, sadness, restlessness, ambivalence! Oh, it's all a mess loool. Slyly, I'm super shook for the results but still happy that it's all out of the way but now my exams are over, I have NO idea what to do with myself! I've used so many exclamation marks already lool, I'm writing this with a massive grin on my face and I actually do not know why ahahahah - I'm just sooo happy, alhamdulillah!

Anyhoooo, onto pressing matters – The other day I was editing my bio, there was this random question generator and it was "Which is more important to you and why: flexibility or expandability?” I didn’t know how in the world I was supposed to tackle such a question loool so I made notes on perspective on which the question could be attacked... I came up with: physically or mentally. The former sounded somewhat sickening so I went for the latter in terms of attributes that are more desirable.

Okay, admittedly both are characteristic that are very useful but then again their usefulness is rather reliant on how we ourselves classify them and also dependent on if we’re talking spiritually or not – if that makes sense?

There is more than one meaning to flexibility which could be being able to bend without collapsing or it could mean for one to be easily swayed. In regards to the former, it is unquestionable that being flexible is great – and when one looks at it from the perspective of our mind, body and soul, we should be able to be open or be able bend (open to ideas, experiences and ideologies). In spite of this, we should also be wary of being too flexible as we may become ruined and rendered useless lol. One doesn’t want to be so open that you get to a stage whereby you lose yourself and values which were once intrinsic aha.

Flexibility entails freedom, choice and breathing room which makes it seem like the much better trait to possess; after all many of people advocate liberty, lool! Besides, with flexibility there is room for one to grown from mistakes made as well as there being lots of options and the knack to reassess things happening. It isn’t particularly limited and gives one the power to focus on ones self and priorities – does that make sense? We all have the flexibility to move without much restraint in creating the life you want and allows one to build on it from wherever you choose – things aren’t stagnant, change is always occurring, gotta move with the times lol.

In regards to flexibility being described as being swayed without difficulty, this view leads one to believe that it is perhaps not a valuable trait. But this could also be a misconception. This is somewhat similar to being able to bend but in this instance there’s more focus on the effect the outside has on your flexibility. In principle, one should be open to change but then again it is a bit of a problem when change happens too quickly – does anyone else worry about that? I do lol. Viable change ought to occur when much consideration has been taken and when one has vivid awareness of the impact of the change and its result. If a change is done super swift then you could actually go as far as saying that the change was done with minimal clarity. Consequently, there is potential of a myriad of problems which I can’t even lie can be suuuuper LONG – ain’t nobody got time fo’ dat. Mate, I’m not however saying that things that can happen against plans or that the recompense we get for accepting a change is different than what we expect but by planning, such outcomes are unlikely – I’d like to think anyway, not like I’ve been through enough to make such a conclusive assertion.

Expandability is a bit different even though it does seem rather analogous. Expandability = spread out, unfold or enlarge. In terms of being meaningful, I think expandability may take the lead a bit because when something/someone is expanding they aren’t just changing the person that are they are but they are also maintaining their originality. Through expanding, you are gaining. Whereas, with flexibility the object is changes thus forming it to what the person/thing controlling desires – one might have freedom but there isn’t as much room to grow as you would have otherwise.

What’s more is that being able to expand and unfold is to some extent very vital because isn’t that one of the many goals of our journey through life? For use to be able to expand our experiences and knowledge whilst our physical form grown and unfolds into adulthood? On the contrary, it isn’t always as easy as stated lool – things are always easier to say than do. I find it hard to open up to people emotionally as well as supporting others emotionally, to a point whereby I can no longer protect myself. It’s very long. Besides, isn’t the main purpose of having things folded is so that not everything is in the open? When one unfolds, everything becomes open to the elements, the idea of there being little privacy is disconcerting ahahaha – slight exaggeration there but I hope you get my drift. I try to be open to provide emotional support to everyone but at the same time I appreciate it being reciprocated so I don’t relish in the idea of getting so caught up in helping everyone else that I have to neglect myself. It sounds a bit selfish but ultimately keeping oneself content is the primary goal tbh. If I can’t keep myself comforted and grounded, how am I supposed to be able to expand out everyone else? There’d be no energy for me to hold myself up if I’m constantly focusing on everyone else – no? Once again, if I can’t hold myself up, how can I offer help to hold someone else up, it would all seem like a big joke.

Ultimately, both are in different ways as beneficial as the other to have but as stated earlier it is massively dependent on what we regard them to mean and how being either/or has an effect on us.

LEUL, I've just basically gone on for ages *siiiigggghh* Anyway, I seriously hope that the stuff I've said made else this would have sucked. It would be nice to know what some of you reading this think about the question. Feel free to leave your answer in the comment box, I'd love to read them! Thank you guys again for reading aha, it's always interesting to see how many people actually read this. Finally on 5000 views, wooooooooooo! 

"Through life we suffer, through friends we never have to suffer alone"


Monday, 21 January 2013

Flexibility or Expandability

Okay, so in Profile bit there was a random (but very thought-provoking) question...Which is more important to you and why: flexibility or expandability? 

I'm going to do a post answering it, after Wednesday when I have no exam. I asked it on Twitter, got very scattered replies (i.e. one) lool and I tweeted my thoughts on it. It's such a good question lol. I'll write more on it, probably on Thursday!



Urm, I'm revising UK politics atm...seriously CBA. Like, seriously. It's probably the most strenuous yet minimal revision I'm ever doing. I don't want to get a crap grade, otherwise I would have given up long ago.

Was looking at my blog earlier and the posts without titles look so craps :( I'm gonna go through them and give them a title so it looks better. I'm also going to create a new blog for stuff like creative writing. A while back, I found myself writing mini stories and coming up with ideas for some but they never actually materialised unfortunately so yeah, I'm gonna make use of this! 

Ahhh, it's MLK day today so to commemorate that I'll use one of his quotes lawl. RIP.

"The ultimate measure of a man is not where he stands in moments of comfort and convenience, but where he stands at times of challenge and controversy.
-MLK Jr."


Thursday, 3 January 2013


Aesh. I haven't written here in a LONG time. Like forever, I've been so caught up in life! Lorl, I say that like my life is very interesting. Just the basic stuff tbh, sixthform, personal life, family etc. My summer has been an alright one. I think I posted after results day  - let me check. Yeah, I did.
Crazy how quick time flies, like the amount of things that have happened don't feel like it's been such a long time - if that makes sense? And also, it's the end of 2012! Literally, 2012 has gone so quick yet it's had a jolting effect on my life. I think my views have matured significantly to be honest but then again, it's called personal growth for a reason I guess. Everytime I'm about to write here I think I have a lot to say then it comes down to it and I have nothing to say, damn.
Currently, I'm sat in the library feeling victorious after completing my comparative essay. However, I 'm a bit apprehensive about the feedback I'm going to get lol. I still have my critical to complete which shall be done tonight when I get home. I've also done a bit of revision for History. I have two resits in January, which I really cannot be bothered to do. I got B's in them so it seems a bit pointless but then again I don't want to not revise for it because that will be massively counterproductive and knowing some of the teachers I have, they'd probably make me pay for the exam if I flop lorl.
Ohhh yeah! I've applied to uni, wooo ¬_¬
Ayeee, I stopped writing and I'm only now writing to finish it up. Mate, I've only realised just how MUCH revision I have to go through and I'm sooooo scared, like really. I'm gonna start revision at 11 so I've got about 20 mins to write now. (doubt I'm writing that much tbh)
Oh yeeeeah, applied for uni! ^_^ Applied for three different courses though, mad. Accounting and Management at Kent and Westminster, Accounting and Finance at Plymough and Leeds then Business Management at Queen Mary Uni. I don't know whether I want Kent or Queen Mary the most, I'm a bit nervous and apprehensive. Accounting and Management is the more "academic" degree and specialist but as I'm looking to do a top up degree with Law so I can go into Company Law/Soliciting, it wouldn't really matter what I'm doing - Queen Mary is better uni but BM isn't really all that. However, the main modules I'm looking to do which is Corporate Governance and Business Law is in both courses, I don't think I'm too fussy. AAAANNNDDD Queen Mary is in London which would be super live to live in - would make a great change from Northampton. So far I've only got two offers which kinda sux :( but I'm still appreciative of them though! I've got them from Plymouth and Westminster. 
Aye, I can't wait for my gap year, I'm exxccccciiittteeeddd. I'm going to spend a bit of time in Nigeria, might do some charity work, then do some travelling then work for a bit. Going to spend a lot of the summer til November working so I can save up - I reaaaaally want to go to Seychelles, Gambia, South Africa and Egypt whilst I'm in Nigeria, hopefully I save up enough to fund it! I should be back around June so I can sort out my student finance and accommodation, etc for uni. A bit troubled about the fact that, due to my gap year I'm going to be like a year behind my friends but then again I'm quite young for my year (July born) so I'm going I'll be 19 which will be the same age as 1st years :) 
Presently I'm trying to get my head round the fact that the time I anticipated for revision is a lot longer than what I actually have *sigh* So I have to go to the library LOOOAADDSS, tomorrow I'm going to the uni library so as to get a lot more done. Kinda pointless resitting these exams but I've stated why already. 

Anyhooooo, I hope you lot reading this had a great holiday period and thanks for reading this. Sometimes I question myself for the reasoning behind creating this blog because it seems kinda pointless but then I look at the views and it kinda gets me all chuffed lol - people actually read it ^_^. So far I've got 4433 views, great stuff! My blog is a form of catharsis and people say it's relatable, also it's sort of memory keeping as well. Especially the little things, it will be things I'll read later on in life and be like "Ohhhh, I remember that!" lol. 

"I hope that in this year to come, you make mistakes. Because if you are making mistakes, then you are making new things, trying new things, learning, living, pushing yourself, changing yourself, changing your world. You're doing things you've never done before, and more importantly, you're Doing Something. So that's my wish for you, and all of us, and my wish for myself. Make New Mistakes. Make glorious, amazing mistakes. Make mistakes nobody's ever made before. Don't freeze, don't stop, don't worry that it isn't good enough, or it isn't perfect, whatever it is: art, or love, or work or family or life.

Whatever it is you're scared of doing, Do it.

Make your mistakes, next year and forever."